Open Letter to My Oldest Son

Tonight, I need to unload thoughts and feelings that have bombarded me.  I never thought you’d be more difficult to parent as you got older and now that you’re out of school, it’s worse.  Not because you’re a bad kid or making bad decision, but because it’s hard to watch you in pain. I’ve watched…

Black Dog Named Depression

Several months ago, a “Facebook friend” shared this video put out by the World Health Organization.  I watched it, then watched it again and again.  While I could’t relate to everything described in the short video, I was able to relate to much of it. I don’t think this video is intended for all audiences, but for…

Walking Steel Beams

So, it’s been a while since the last post.  I attribute this primarily to a busy Summer and a  heavy work load.  I’d be lying, however, if I didn’t admit that my “muse” comes and goes.  There are times when thoughts have to be expressed, words written, emotions purged.  There are times, however, when I…

Friendship

He never disappoints. Friendship is unnecessary, like philosophy, like art… It has no survival value; rather it is one of those things that give value to survival. C. S. Lewis I disagree with Professor Lewis here about whether friendships survive, but he certainly had a way with words.  He’s able to evoke emotion about a…

Summertime Running

When I started running in 1996, I lived in Omaha, Nebraska.  I was a first year law student and had been married about four years.  We had no children at the time, so I found myself able to run every day whenever I wanted. Then children came and I was introduced to the rigors of Summertime…

A Good Place

I started this blog as a means to convey my thoughts and experiences to my children.  I wanted them to know their father in a different way than the guy who’s always telling them to stop fighting or to clean up the kitchen.  I wanted them to know the struggles I face, but I also…

It’s Time

I’ve done my research and it’s time.  It’s time to buy a motorcycle and take up riding. I’m noticing that as I age, I wonder whether I’ll ever get the chance to enjoy hobbies again.  I’ve been considering this purchase now for more than a year and a half, but haven’t “pulled the trigger”. I’m…

Hobbies

A few days ago, I spent some time with my oldest son and we found ourselves talking about life after high school.  Eventually, the conversation turned to hobbies.  I told him I really don’t have any hobbies and that I regret lost years developing them.  The conversation got me thinking. People often ask what I…

Post Script – “I Understood”

I’m learning that readers receive and process words in such different ways that one cannot predict how a post will be received. I’m sure this is more accurate when posts address sensitive subjects.   This brings me (back) to a prior post – “I Understood.” In hindsight, I should have included a disclaimer qualifying my words….

On a Happier Note

I just re-read the last post only to realize how morose it sounds and, yet. . .  nothing I wrote was inaccurate.  It’s very difficult to express in words the way my mind sees the world at times.  Sometimes it’s just dark. Moving on to a happier note, though, my daughter and I recently completed…

I Understood

To those who don’t suffer depression, feel free to skip right over this one.  However, those who have may relate in some way to the message. Recently, my wife had a close high school friend commit suicide.  A man in his early forties he left behind 4 young children, a wife and many grieving family…